one day a girl was ready for an adventure. she started a new job. she met new people and was excited about all the new opportunities in store. the girl thought she was ready for change. the next few months all she did was learn; about her new role in her job, about herself and about what she wanted in life.
over time she formed new relationships with people in her free time and at the workplace. the girl was having fun. she was single and enjoying life. she felt complete even though she was single. sometimes the girl got stressed out at work. she became good friends with a coworker who consoled her. in the meantime she met lots of men in many different places who liked her body but she never met anyone who interested her, even though she was ready for love.
all the while her friendship with her coworker grew deeper and stronger over time. she only realized how deeply at a workshop. she saw him with another woman and felt jealous and very sad. suddenly and without consciously choosing to, she had fallen in love with him.
she could not understand why she felt that way. he picked it up that she was sad and reached out to her. he stroked her hair and pushed some strands behind her ear.she could not tell if he felt the same way. she was terrified of telling him because she knew his stand on workplace romance. she tried to deny her feelings, but one day they came out and bit her in the ass! lol.
Suddenly she gave in to her feelings and exposed herself. she panicked! At first he was kind and admitted he once felt the same. then he too panicked. he lashed out and pushed her away.she begged and pleaded with him to talk about it. she was malicious and hostile. all to no avail, he shut her out completely. her spirit was broken. she lost her confidante. she was looking at him but he was looking the other way. as long as she looked at him she would not meet her prince.
she went on and cut contact. after months of tears she started to put the pieces together. she knew she was not fully recovered when he spoke to her about another woman. Didn't he know it was painful for her to hear? she told him but he continued and told her even more the next day.she realised the feelings for him were not gone only hidden deep in her heart. she was shocked because she had started to love someone else!
even though her heart was bleeding she had to turn away from him too. she knew if she behaved as before, the love might resurface. she knew it would never be returned. this time her heart was not the only one at stake but also the heart of him she had started to love. so, she decided to be brave and let go, until maybe she decided she still wanted to be friends again. even though it was painful she had to do it because he showed her he was not her prince. and she deserved a prince...
so she got herself together, called her girlfriends and went out to her favourite restaurant because this is not her life anymore...but something which happened and she decided to move on.
over time she formed new relationships with people in her free time and at the workplace. the girl was having fun. she was single and enjoying life. she felt complete even though she was single. sometimes the girl got stressed out at work. she became good friends with a coworker who consoled her. in the meantime she met lots of men in many different places who liked her body but she never met anyone who interested her, even though she was ready for love.
all the while her friendship with her coworker grew deeper and stronger over time. she only realized how deeply at a workshop. she saw him with another woman and felt jealous and very sad. suddenly and without consciously choosing to, she had fallen in love with him.
she could not understand why she felt that way. he picked it up that she was sad and reached out to her. he stroked her hair and pushed some strands behind her ear.she could not tell if he felt the same way. she was terrified of telling him because she knew his stand on workplace romance. she tried to deny her feelings, but one day they came out and bit her in the ass! lol.
Suddenly she gave in to her feelings and exposed herself. she panicked! At first he was kind and admitted he once felt the same. then he too panicked. he lashed out and pushed her away.she begged and pleaded with him to talk about it. she was malicious and hostile. all to no avail, he shut her out completely. her spirit was broken. she lost her confidante. she was looking at him but he was looking the other way. as long as she looked at him she would not meet her prince.
she went on and cut contact. after months of tears she started to put the pieces together. she knew she was not fully recovered when he spoke to her about another woman. Didn't he know it was painful for her to hear? she told him but he continued and told her even more the next day.she realised the feelings for him were not gone only hidden deep in her heart. she was shocked because she had started to love someone else!
even though her heart was bleeding she had to turn away from him too. she knew if she behaved as before, the love might resurface. she knew it would never be returned. this time her heart was not the only one at stake but also the heart of him she had started to love. so, she decided to be brave and let go, until maybe she decided she still wanted to be friends again. even though it was painful she had to do it because he showed her he was not her prince. and she deserved a prince...
so she got herself together, called her girlfriends and went out to her favourite restaurant because this is not her life anymore...but something which happened and she decided to move on.
2 comments:
It can be so hard to let go.
<3 girlfriends
tell me about it. but it gets better over time.
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