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Saturday, September 20, 2008

reflecting on my life

My teeth have been a bit sensitive on the right hand side especially the upper jaw. I guess they are moving...

I still have a week to go until my adjustment. I promise not to miss it this time!

I had lunch with a friend today, a good friend. Do you know what its like when you sit there and find yourself with someone but you can't remember what you have in common? You sit there thinking of what you want for your life and its not what the two of you are talking about or where this person is at. For the longest time I felt neglected by this friend and lately by another, but I think I've reached a point where I've realised that my real friends will call me every once in while and answer my messages... I think I've been asking myself whether it is a bad thing that the other friend never returns my calls? That means I may have outgrown this friendship.

I think I'm in a good space now because I am really evaluating my life in all aspects, emotionally, spiritually, financially and in terms of the company I keep and I have realised that if I want to get to where I want to go I need to make alot of changes.

Well, at the moment I am not single. I spent every day of the week with my new 'boyfriend'. But I've realised something, its different now. I don't have expectations. For the moment I just want us to get to know each other before deciding on anything. This one is nice but I don't know if he is the one. I do know that I'm not going to lose myself. I think I've grown up like that, I don't just fall in love with a man because he expresses interest anymore. He has to be special and while this one is nice, he doesn't fit the bill just yet.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

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Sunday, September 14, 2008

totally missed my last adjustment!

ok so the only thing you can possibly be wondering is how the heck does someone miss an adjustment? oh gosh there are just so many things running through my mind at the moment.

i was really ill for about two weeks and the medication the Dr. gave me reacted so badly with my system i ended up getting hospitalised which was not fun. but i have a different kind of crisis on my hands at the moment. so remember i mentioned i went out for dinner with a 'friend' and it was just refreshing. this friend and i ended up going on more dates, holding hands and a couple of kisses.

this weekend he did not call me once, did not respond to my text messages and call me back when he missed my call. i'm so confused. anyway so i reschudled my appointment for the 31st and when i realised i missed it. damn i felt dum that day, lol.

as for my teeth, the teeth in the upper left hand jaw have been really sensitive and its worse if i eat meat or chicken. i guess it means they are moving but there was even a time when they were aching which is soemthing i have not experienced for a while because i have become used to the pain....

hope you all have some good news for me this feels like a blue monday.